Author Archives: jazzhandsmom06

I am all heart. I always have been. It is my greatest strength…and my greatest weakness. If I give you my heart, you’ll always have a piece of it. If I ever loved you, I still do in one way or another…even if I have to do so from afar. If you ever broke myContinue reading “Finding My Heart”

Not gonna lie…that image was a labor of love…or obsession…turns out there’s not an online generator to spell words out using bacon strips. Someone should get on that. Also, I am now really hungry. But it also wound up being the perfect segue into what I wanted to write about today. You know that saying,Continue reading “Call Me Bacon”

I know that I’m disappointing people left and right lately. I’ve been told I’m not the person I was a year ago. I’ve been told I’m not fighting hard enough. I’ve been told I’m fighting too hard. I’ve been told I’m not staying positive. I’ve been told to stop being so positive and making jokes.Continue reading “I’m Trying”

Some people look at this picture and see a tarot card. I look at it and see what was my life. I spent many, many years doing the hermit thing. It was safe. If I didn’t let anyone too close…I wouldn’t find out again that I wasn’t enough…or that I was too much. If IContinue reading “The Hermit”

I have always prided myself on having unshakeable faith. I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe that God has a plan for all of us and that, if we only believe, it’s a beautiful plan. I believe that every tribulation is meant to put you where you’re supposed to be…sometimes for yourContinue reading “Not Everything That Shakes…Breaks”

Dear Sister, On this day, when the world celebrates moms, I see you. And you are a superhero. I see the pain you try to hide. I see the war you wage as you celebrate your own motherhood, while grieving what never was. I see the light laughs and excuses you use when people askContinue reading “An Open Letter to the Motherless Mothers. You Are Superheros.”

I’ve always loved people watching. I could sit and watch people for hours…watching children play…watching moms chasing after their children…watching friends…lovers…and everyone in between. As someone who’s never really felt like I fully fit, I LOVED watching the way other people fit together. And, let me tell you, if you’ve never people watched in aContinue reading “The Station”

Dear Zuck, If you’re reading this, my sentence is up and I have been released. However, I still have things to say. Mostly… Not Sorry. Not even a little bit. See, you put me in jail for two crimes: 1. Being absolutely fucking hilarious. It’s true. There are many areas of life where I fallContinue reading “Dear Zuck, Not Sorry”

A few introductions to this particular blog. First, I have this thing I do when I’m REALLY anxious. I call it the Strikethrough Exercise. When all of the thoughts are swirling…the worries…the negativity…and I feel like I can’t control them…I write them down…one by one…and then…one by one…I cross through each thought and write nextContinue reading “All of Life’s Wealth is CHANGE”

Warning: Shit’s about to get real up in here. Lol Everyone knows I’ve been having blackouts from POTS. The thing is, although each one has been scary… each one has also fueled me further in a, “the fuck you *will* take my life from me” capacity. Each one has pushed me further in my driveContinue reading “THE Blackout”