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“Hate cannot drive out Hate, only Love can do that.” Martin Luther King, Jr. said this. And…as much as people love to quote him in their arguments…I don’t believe I have seen anyone I know share this one. Why? Because change is often believed to rely on justice. And justice is often believed to beContinue reading “Change, Not Vengeance”

Last night an amazing thing happened in my world…at one of my low points…when I was feeling most lost and alone…most confused about whether I am the person I want to be…the person I’ve always been proud to be…my friends rallied. Let me explain the background on that before I go into detail. I’m prettyContinue reading “Thank You”

A very, very…very, very…VERY long time ago (shut up, I’m old!), there was a little 10 year old girl. She hadn’t had a very exceptional life up to that point…positively or negatively. She had a daddy who the world revolved around, so she was mostly able to ignore the fact that her mother didn’t reallyContinue reading “My Reason Why”

Letting Go has been the theme of my year. But…my view on it has been evolving over that time. In my life, I have usually been guilty of holding on for too long. Not for myself always, though. The usual reason for my monster grip on things (especially people) was that I didn’t want toContinue reading “It’s OK to Let Go”

Preface to say, I’m going to start using this place to write out some of my musings regarding therapy. It helps me to write it out. Some things I’ll share beyond here. Others I won’t. Second Preface, this entry isn’t about my boyfriend. The first little bit is just to communicate how I got fromContinue reading “You’re Safe Now”

You know those motivational books about chicken soup for the soul? This is like that. Except not. This is MY version of Snarky-Ass-Motivation. There are a few things I know to be true in life (really…only a few…most of life confuses the fuck out of me). Let me put this into SAT prep kind ofContinue reading “Toxic Waste Colored Pea Soup For the Soul”

I was driving to work this morning…which is when I do my best thinking…and I started thinking about my penchant for fear. Growing up, fear saved me. There’s no two ways about it. When you live a tumultuous life…surrounded by unhealthy people…there is very real danger to both your emotional and physical safety. I learnedContinue reading “Dear Fear”

It’s been awhile since I wrote anything here. Life has been…strange. I almost lost my daughter to suicide on Christmas Eve. Obviously this changed a lot about our lives. There’s no way it couldn’t. Something like that brings a lot into focus that needs to be focused on. She is growing and facing things…and happierContinue reading “I Matter”

Christmas Eve. Approximately 10:30 pm. That’s when I heard the words that no parent ever wants to hear. “Mom, I need to go to the hospital.” My beautiful, hilarious, outrageous…sad, angry, scared, anxious…15 year old daughter had swallowed a bottle of pills. It’s a fear I’ve carried with me for a very long time. She’sContinue reading “A Fear Like No Other”

Many many moons ago I spent Christmas in Mobile, Alabama with a friend. While we were there we went to a club. For the life of me I don’t remember the name of it. What I DO remember is that we WANTED to go into a club called The World…but it was closed. So, weContinue reading “No, World, I Do Not Want To Come In Anymore”