Author Archives: jazzhandsmom06

In the irony of ironies, when we struggle most with feeling alone…sometimes we really need to BE alone. That is the beginning of the clarity that I found today. It is also intertwined in every other bit of clarity and peace I have found. It all goes back to trauma. It all centers on theContinue reading “Finding Answers In The Quiet”

Just for me. Writing the words down so they stop swirling. I’ve finally hit rock bottom. Phone turned off. Plans canceled. Falling off the grid. Quite honestly wishing I could die but too responsible to do anything about it. Because one thing that can be said for me is I always do the right thing.Continue reading “.”

Hi, my name is Sheri. Welcome to my Twilight rants. I started a little habit about 5 years ago. When I’m feeling down, I like to binge watch the Twilight movies. Let me tell you, there is NOTHING like watching these train wrecks to make you feel better about yourself and your life choices. Now,Continue reading “This Pick Me Up Never Fails”

After many years of my father telling me that I was the more responsible of the two of us…and the numerous conversations I had with him over the years about his behavior…I’ve always known that parenting is a two way street. From the first moment I met my Bella, I knew that squirmy crying littleContinue reading “I Want To Be Like Bella When I Grow Up”

Hi, my name is Sheri and I’m a recovering co-dependent. I’d love to say I’m recovered, but it’s a daily battle. Just as the addicts in my life had their drugs/alcohol, control and “helping” was mine. I was so afraid of failing them that I couldn’t not help…always to my own detriment. But tonight…I saidContinue reading “Y’all…I Actually Said No…”

I am all heart. I always have been. It is my greatest strength…and my greatest weakness. If I give you my heart, you’ll always have a piece of it. If I ever loved you, I still do in one way or another…even if I have to do so from afar. If you ever broke myContinue reading “Finding My Heart”

Not gonna lie…that image was a labor of love…or obsession…turns out there’s not an online generator to spell words out using bacon strips. Someone should get on that. Also, I am now really hungry. But it also wound up being the perfect segue into what I wanted to write about today. You know that saying,Continue reading “Call Me Bacon”

I know that I’m disappointing people left and right lately. I’ve been told I’m not the person I was a year ago. I’ve been told I’m not fighting hard enough. I’ve been told I’m fighting too hard. I’ve been told I’m not staying positive. I’ve been told to stop being so positive and making jokes.Continue reading “I’m Trying”

Some people look at this picture and see a tarot card. I look at it and see what was my life. I spent many, many years doing the hermit thing. It was safe. If I didn’t let anyone too close…I wouldn’t find out again that I wasn’t enough…or that I was too much. If IContinue reading “The Hermit”

I have always prided myself on having unshakeable faith. I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe that God has a plan for all of us and that, if we only believe, it’s a beautiful plan. I believe that every tribulation is meant to put you where you’re supposed to be…sometimes for yourContinue reading “Not Everything That Shakes…Breaks”