Author Archives: jazzhandsmom06

So. This morning I did a dumb. I woke up…decided I felt ok…and decided to go for a run. Anyone who’s been following this probably knows that wasn’t necessarily the smartest idea…as I’m dealing with a heart issue… So…why? Why would I do such a stupid thing? Am I trying to prove I’m some kindContinue reading “All the Things She Said”

Blog Preface: Some may consider grace religious. Some may consider it humanity. I consider it both. We have a lot more in common with each other than we sometimes want to believe. (Also, this message weighed on me so heavily I’m writing it in a gas station parking lot. Lol) For what feels like myContinue reading “Grace”

Blog Preface: I speak a lot about gaslighting, because that was my experience. However, I’m not sure whether it was my history or just merely society and my gender that taught me to never be proud. So, please, feel free to let me know if this resonates with you even without a specific history. PRIDE.Continue reading “Pride”

𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐥𝗼𝐭 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲. 𝐒𝐡𝗼𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫, 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭? 𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝗺𝗼𝐬𝐭 𝗼𝐟 𝐮𝐬, 𝗺𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝗼𝗺𝐞𝐧, 𝐟𝗼𝐜𝐮𝐬 𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐓 𝗼𝐧 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧’𝐭. 𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐲𝗼𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠, “𝐍𝗼…𝐈 𝐝𝗼𝐧’𝐭 𝐝𝗼 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭…” 𝐈𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭’𝐬 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐞, 𝐈 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐝 𝐲𝗼𝐮. 𝐈 𝐝𝐞𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝗼 𝐢𝐭. 𝐈𝐭 𝐝𝗼𝐞𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐜𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐧 𝗺𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝗼 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝗼𝐮𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐀𝐌…𝗼𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐚𝗺Continue reading “Things That I Am n̶o̶t̶”

Lord,Grant me THE SERENITY…To remember that this teenaged girl used to love me…even when she pushes my buttons…and screams, “WHY DO YOU HATE ME?!?!?!” at the top of her lungs at least once a day…while simultaneously refusing to leave my side long enough to let me pee…THE COURAGE…to enter her room without a hazmat suit…toContinue reading “An Honest Mother’s Prayer”

About half of the people in my world call me Domino. It’s a nickname that was given to me a couple of years ago by some ladies I was working out with…because one of the first things the group does is give you a nickname based on who you are. About three quarters of theContinue reading “DOMINO?”

Y’all. I’m an ornery person. I just am. There are moments when I desperately want things…that later I just stand there holding going, “Well, what the fuck am I going to do with this now????” Compliments and Friendship are the two biggest of those things. Compliments….that’s the part most of you will probably understand. WhetherContinue reading “Compliments and Friendships”

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what makes each of us special. I’ll start with the Why. I…could not tell you what makes me special. I can tell you what I feel makes me weird. I can tell you what I feel makes me annoying…too much…not enough…all the other things that I tell myselfContinue reading “You’re Special”

A number of years ago, some online friends and I were playing a game. “What’s a phrase you would use to describe me.” Someone came along and said, “Manic Pixie Dream Girl”. I had no idea what he meant, but for some damn reason I respected his opinion enough to go look it up. And…I.Continue reading “Manic Pixie Dream Girl”

It’s funny. I had part of this blog planned out before I saw that memory from two years ago. Now it’s going to be a mix of all my thoughts. Weird, right? Sheri posting a jumble of thoughts? Whodathunkit? So…a few years ago…I found myself. I didn’t do a lot of peopling…because I tend notContinue reading “Finding My Way Back To Grace”