Just Call Me Crossbones

Captain America: Civil War – Brock Rumlow – aka Crossbones – As Black Widow tries to electrocute him he merely responds with, “I don’t work like that no more”.

I think about this scene and this quote way more often than is probably normal. Partially (*cough* mostly) because I’m a giant nerd, but also because I feel this one at a deep personal level.

I used to be told I was a great partner because I was so “malleable”. (I hate that word.)

But I don’t work like that no more.

I used to be easy to manipulate because I was so afraid of upsetting people.

But I don’t work like that no more.

I used to be so afraid of being wrong that I wasn’t strong enough even when I was right.

I don’t work like that no more.

I used to be so afraid of failure that I wouldn’t take any risks.

I don’t work like that no more.

And…the one where I find myself saying this to myself most often… I used to be so insecure and horrified by the thought of people not liking me that I would betray myself to make them happy and no one knew the real me because I was whatever they wanted me to be.

This one…I have to remind myself occasionally…especially in the moments when I know that someone has decided they don’t like me, but…I’m actually proud to say…

Just call me Crossbones

Because I don’t work like that no more.